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Tuesday, September 20, 2011

If you were there.

I really hope i can forget. but i just can't do it. i guess is really impossible. got back english results today. score 53/110. 2 more marks to a pass. i guess i have to work doubly hard for a distinction. but even with everyday a paper done still won't help! D:

i sometimes really wonder. if you were there for me previously like how you used to. will i still fail this exam and grieved over it? how can my life have such a great turn just after some words and actions and mistakes i made?

i talk to everyone of my clique and try to clear my mind. but it still won't bug. how am i suppose to even face you everyday now? you are still the one in my heart but i wonder do you? i still misses you everyday secretly but do you? i still trying to help you in anyway i can but i just couldn't.

i really misses the day when i wait for your messages that made my day in the past. just a message from you can let me contented. i just wanted a secured answer previously. i did not intend to force you to make the decision right now. i want your heart but not your sympathy. i want you love and not your remorse for me. thats why i chose to let you go when i know you will only suffer with me and not leading a luxurous and comfortable life. i seriously hope that you are the one i was looking for. but seems im not the one in your heart.

i brought up my courage to sms you the 3 simple words. but seems like is really an one sided love story. i know all this have to end. i won't fail to grieve, but i tried to move on. but even if i moved on, everything will still remain the way it does. so i guess there's no room for argument.

regrets,

blone

thinkin' of you at ... 7:34 AM

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Monday, September 19, 2011

Thank you

I don't know why i just can't forget all the past memories i have in my whole entire secondary school life. i just find that is impossible to erase all those unwanted memories that cause me in such a pain every night when i sleep. once i closes my eyes, everything keep flashing through, how my dreams got broken, how deeply was the cut in my heart, how redundant my presence was to hurt so many people and got myself hurt as well. Up till today, i still can't forget the trash i was from then till now left unchanged. seriously i think i belongs to the rubbish chute where i was used and dumped to aside, neglected.

to the special someone, it really hurts me whenever i see you, walk past you. i don't want all this ignoring. neither do i have the courage to talk to you up front. but i really at loss of words and solution to salvage the situation further. though i wanted to give up, but my heart just can't do it. may be the useless me still hasn't change that you won't accept me. but i hope you can last long with the person who have been supporting you all this while and lead a great life. i know i'm not the guy you've looking for. i know i've been an irritating person who bug you all day long. but now, everything is changed. i'm not the one who has the ability to take care of you anymore. im just a mentally disabled person for whatever that i do fails. so no matter, hope you really have a wonderful life ahead. if time could rewind, i wish i had never commit such a grave mistake that i hurt you which was not my intention all this while. Good Luck My Love, Stay safe and healthy.......

Regards,

Blone

thinkin' of you at ... 8:27 AM

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Friday, September 2, 2011

Laughters

Today had great fun with my primary school mates while studying at Arena Country Club. although the time was short, but we manage to catch up with one another and share some of the memories we spent in the olden days. In the morning, I went to the Health Promotion Board with Si Yuan for a back bone check up appointment at Outram Park. We reached there early and manage to squeeze through the queue and get it done in short time. After that went to study at the Burger King located in Arena Country Club. A fruitful time spent to study that i manage to revise mathematics and social studies. After an hour studying, we headed to Pastamania for dinner. Not a bad choice though. The food was nice and the portion was just right! Soon, climbed up to the second floor for a pool session filled with laughter! Glad to see that everyone enjoyed themselves there. We went to slack at a table under Ai Theng's house and have great laughter there. Jokes filled the atmosphere. Soon after, we had to head home as it was getting real late. And finally, that's my day! :DD

Blone,

Yixin

thinkin' of you at ... 10:20 AM

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Thursday, September 1, 2011

Start of something new..

First and foremost, i wanted to create a new blog as the previous one was in a mess and i don't feel like edit from it so starting a new one would be enough i supposed? So here goes, in this blog, i'm gonna post things that happened throughout the days and some pictures to enhance exciting flow of the post! I may or may not post everyday but I'll try my best to keep it alive so that it won't end up like the previous one again. The second reason that I'm starting a new blog because of people request i supposed. Like long time never write a blog and have a lost of feeling of how is it like. Feeling great to be back to blogging! looking forward for most posts by my own hands. I hope i really can manage it well and won't keep people in suspense or rather entertain to my best abilities. Thank You!

Blone,

Yixin

thinkin' of you at ... 7:13 AM

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