`` You are my GUARDIAN ANGEL**

Tuesday, September 20, 2011

If you were there.

I really hope i can forget. but i just can't do it. i guess is really impossible. got back english results today. score 53/110. 2 more marks to a pass. i guess i have to work doubly hard for a distinction. but even with everyday a paper done still won't help! D:

i sometimes really wonder. if you were there for me previously like how you used to. will i still fail this exam and grieved over it? how can my life have such a great turn just after some words and actions and mistakes i made?

i talk to everyone of my clique and try to clear my mind. but it still won't bug. how am i suppose to even face you everyday now? you are still the one in my heart but i wonder do you? i still misses you everyday secretly but do you? i still trying to help you in anyway i can but i just couldn't.

i really misses the day when i wait for your messages that made my day in the past. just a message from you can let me contented. i just wanted a secured answer previously. i did not intend to force you to make the decision right now. i want your heart but not your sympathy. i want you love and not your remorse for me. thats why i chose to let you go when i know you will only suffer with me and not leading a luxurous and comfortable life. i seriously hope that you are the one i was looking for. but seems im not the one in your heart.

i brought up my courage to sms you the 3 simple words. but seems like is really an one sided love story. i know all this have to end. i won't fail to grieve, but i tried to move on. but even if i moved on, everything will still remain the way it does. so i guess there's no room for argument.

regrets,

blone

thinkin' of you at ... 7:34 AM

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